I kindly ask that you read this entire post before leaving any comments. While I am no longer vegan, the recipes on this blog will always be vegan friendly and cater to all types of eaters. Thank you for your continued support.
I have been putting this post off for a while because I’ve been really nervous about how it would be received. On one end, I was worried that friends and family who were skeptical of a plant based diet to begin with would have an “I told you so” mentality.
On the other hand, I worried that those who believe a plant-based diet is the only healthful way of eating would be critical and not understand my choice.
The bottom line is, I won’t ever be able to please everyone. This is the best decision for me and I am here to share my story in hopes it helps anyone who is in a similar position as I was.
Becoming vegan
I first went vegan in the Fall of 2015 and I felt really good. I had been pescatarian for a few months prior to that, and decided to cut out all dairy to help my hormones, digestion, and skin. Eventually, eggs were the only animal products remaining, so I figured why not try veganism?
Initially, it was a change I made for my health. However, it quickly became a deeply ethical stance after learning about factory farming and how animals end up on our plates. To me, veganism wasn’t a diet, it was a lifestyle, and I was in it for the long haul. For myself, the planet, and the animals.
My skin was the clearest it had ever been, my energy was high, my sleep and mood improved, my periods were easy, my running got better, the benefits were seemingly endless.
I was so excited about sharing my cruelty-free lifestyle with others, so eventually Eat With Clarity was born. I was passionate about sharing recipes with others and was excited to see the vegan movement grow.
I like to think I was a really responsible vegan. I always took my important supplements (vitamins D, B12, and even a multivitamin for good measure), didn’t try extreme fruit only diets, month long water fasts, or any of the other ridiculous trends I’d seen others doing.
Where things went wrong
About a year and a half ago (early 2018) I started to lose extreme amounts of hair in the shower. I’m not talking about a few extra hairs in my brush or on my pillow. I mean huge handfuls that would require me to clean the shower drain at least 3 times over the course of a 5-10 minute shower or else I would end up taking a bath instead.
I hate to sound superficial, but hair loss as a young woman is terrifying. It’s scary to feel like your body is going against you and scarier when you don’t know how to stop it or how bad it’s going to get.
I didn’t share any of this until now because it’s hard dealing with health issues and broadcasting them publicly. Everyone seems to have an opinion about what you should and shouldn’t do, so I kept this to myself for the most part.
Frankly, I don’t love sharing this now. But I think it’s important to include these details and share my story because what I went through is incredibly common. So, if you too are dealing with hair loss or other health issues, please know you aren’t alone.
I knew I needed a change
In addition to the hair loss, I lost my periods, had extreme fatigue yet horrible insomnia, shortness of breath, shin rashes, digestive discomfort and acne so severe I could hardly sleep.
No matter what I ate, right after dinner I was always bloated, gassy, and felt painfully inflamed. Most of the time after I ate I looked pregnant. I was in so much physical and emotional pain that I became a very unpleasant person to be around.
I played around with different foods, macronutrient breakdowns, and a host of other things while still maintaining a vegan diet, but nothing seemed to help.
No matter what food I cut out or added back, it stayed the same. My skin was terrible, my energy was low, and it was really hard finding foods that didn’t irritate my body.
I saw countless doctors and specialists. Eventually, after getting multiple rounds of blood work done, I learned I had severe hormonal imbalances, anemia, leaky gut, celiac disease and several nutrient deficiencies despite my diligent supplementation and varied plant-based diet.
My iron, B12, and vitamin D were extremely low, as well as iodine, selenium, zinc, copper, and a few others.
My body was unable to absorb iron and other nutrients in my food and supplements. In order to absorb nutrients, I needed to heal my gut. There were many foods I had to eliminate to heal my gut such as certain nuts, grains, and legumes. Continuing on a vegan diet without these foods would only lead to further deficiencies.
I contemplated making the change for months before I actually did, despite having very strong cravings for things like eggs and salmon.
Veganism had become a huge part of my identity over the years and I didn’t want to let it go. I love animals and didn’t want to contribute to any suffering, but I also didn’t want my own health to suffer.
While I was not dealing with any life threatening conditions (though they very much so affected my ability to function on a daily basis), the symptoms I had served as very stark warning signs that something was wrong and needed my attention. If I continued to ignore them now, they would merely lead to more severe health issues down the road.
I tried EVERYTHING
In the past year and half I have seen more doctors and specialists than I care to count. I’ve seen conventional doctors, naturopathic doctors, homeopaths, chiropractors, acupuncturists, nutritionists, dietitians. You name it, I’ve tried it. I’ve had countless tests done, from hormone panels, to thyroid, iron, vitamin A, D, B12, iodine, and more.
I tried DOZENS of supplements (at one point I was taking upwards of 50 supplements a day just to feel normal). A lot of progress was made thanks to certain supplements, but not enough to get my health back to normal.
I love animals, I care about the planet, I don’t want to contribute to the suffering of any living being. But I couldn’t ignore the fact that my health was getting worse.
Your body speaks to you. Your job is to listen.
In January of this year, I decided to add collagen and bone broth into my diet to help my gut. I was scared to take the first sip of bone broth, maybe even a little grossed out, but as soon as I did, I could hear my body saying ahhh, yes, this is what I need. I drank it a few times a week, and added collagen to my golden milk lattes and slowly started to feel better.
Eventually, I added in eggs, wild caught fish, and organic chicken a few times a week. I soon noticed I no longer had the gassy and bloated feeling after I ate. Changes certainly did not occur overnight, but over time I started to feel much better, and my blood work reflected that.
To me, veganism was always about compassion. Compassion for others, the animals, the planet, but also for myself. Despite my morals screaming at me to keep eating a fully plant-based diet, my body was screaming for something different.
I couldn’t continue eating in a way that was not contributing to my health. Is eating an entirely plant-based diet a kinder way to treat the animals? Yes. But I needed to find a happy medium and treat myself kindly.
I wanted to be in a good place both physically and mentally before I shared this change. I have no ulterior or financial motive for changing my diet. The sole reason I changed my diet was because it was necessary for my health.
My experience adding in animal products
After many years and many thousands of dollars, I am very happy to report that my hair loss has stopped and is (slowly but surely!) growing back. My energy is higher, I’m able to sleep through the night, my digestion is better, my skin has cleared, I got my period back, and my blood work is much better.
My health issues didn’t vanish overnight and my dietary change hasn’t healed everything. Diet is only one piece of the health puzzle, albeit a very important one. This is my story and experience, and I do not want to give the vegan movement a bad rap.
I understand my decision may be confusing or upsetting. However, I want to be clear that a fully plant-based diet is a healthful and nutritious way of eating. It can work for a lot of people. However, I had to honor the fact that it was no longer working for me and probably won’t work for everyone. Humans are natural omnivores after all, and as much as I wanted it to, a fully plant based diet did not agree with my body. Veganism is inherently about compassion, but it’s important to remember to extend this compassion to ourself and fellow humans who simply cannot eat this way. Whether for health, financial or other reasons.
There is no one perfect human diet. We are all unique beings with different needs, ancestral backgrounds, and physical chemistries. I used to believe that some variation of veganism could work for everyone. But over the past year of dealing with my health issues, I realize this is not the case.
Being a compassionate, ethical, environmentally conscious person does not have to be black or white. Small changes go a long way and I think it’s important for us to do the best we can when we can. I do my best to be as environmentally and ethically conscious as possible while still maintaining my health.
When I heard stories of other people turning their backs on the vegan diet for health reasons, I would roll my eyes. I didn’t think there was any possible way animal products would promote health.
I always thought said person couldn’t have been in it for the right reasons. My sincere apologies to any ex-vegan I ever judged along the way. I can now understand where you are coming from.
What this means going forward
The recipes on this blog will continue to be 80% plant based and always gluten and dairy free. The recipes that are not vegan will have vegan options or alternatives whenever possible.
Certain recipes will contain eggs, fish, or chicken from time to time. However, I want this to be a place where ALL types of eaters are welcome, no questions or judgment.
My ultimate goal will always be to inspire others to bring MORE plants into the picture. For the sake of our health, the animals, and the planet, more plants is an excellent goal.
I feel amazing eating mostly plant based, but feel extra amazing with the addition of animal products. I hope you can respect my decision and I appreciate all of your continued love and support! ♡
Michele says
I recently tried vegan diet health reasons, fully researched, fully dedicated, and experienced no improvement. In fact, my arthritis got worse, I’m dedicated to giving it the full amount of time because, but it’s hard. Thank you for this article.
Paul says
I was vegan for 15 years, with pretty heavy health issues like you mentioned. I finally stopped after getting severely ill in 2018. I’m a 5’9″ man, and my weight got down to 130 lb, I stopped sleeping, and my nails got so brittle and finally half of them fell off! I contracted several illnesses at the same time (a parasitic stomach infection, sinus infection, and a bacterial infection) that kept me sick for 8 weeks. My wife finally told me she needed to nurse me back to health and I told her I would goo ahead and abandon my strict diet temporarily to eat whatever she made. Well, she went with some meat and it was precisely the next day I started to feel better and recover. I stuck with a little meat to my diet daily and gained 20 lb of muscle in about a month! No more extreme diets, balance is key. There’s a major lack of balance in western society in general today, and even diet has become a one or the other extreme. That, as it turns out, hasn’t been a healthy turn.
Jaeda Diller says
Wow that is a powerful story. Thank you for sharing. I took experienced the same thing. I was vegan for 7 years and finally it got to the point that my joints hurt so bad I couldn’t walk. But I didn’t realize it was my diet. When I got married my husband even before we married was patient with me and slowly helped me realize that it was indeed my diet making me SICK. I found a good balance finally and have two healthy children now I think only due to the change of diet.
Linda says
I have been vegan for 3 years and just went back to eating fish, chicken and low fat cheese. I feel better now. I went the vegan way of eating for my many health issues and believed everything I read about it. It was actually harder to go back than to start the vegan. I still eat mostly vegetable, just with these additions. I need to lose weight and have not been able to even with the low calorie. Hopefully I can lose now. Thanks for your blog.
Kayla says
I have been vegan for 3 years as well and at first I felt really good, I have lost quite a bit of weight. But my vitamins are majorly suffering. I can’t take certain vitamins at all, I’ve tried all kinds and have spent hundreds of dollars just to have to throw them out. My acne is the worst it has ever been and I’m almost 36! My acid reflux and gassy feeling are the worst ever! I haven’t eaten any animal products yet, but I have been thinking about it. I feel so bad and like such a failure! I’m also very nervous about telling my vegan friends if I do decide to start adding in animal products. They very much don’t understand. This is a great article and is what I needed to hear.
Claire Cary says
Sorry to hear about what you’re going through. Definitely listen to your body, I know it can be a tough change and people may be confused, but it’s so important to do what is best for you.
Jaeda Diller says
Hello Kayla! I was definitely in the same boat as you except I didn’t realize that it was my diet making me sick till I got married and my husband pointed it out. It still took time for my to let go of my diet. It is a hard transition! I am trying to better understand how to help people in this situation and would love your response if you would be willing to help me out. 😊
Cindy says
I’m sorry that has happened to you, and I can’t imagine how difficult it is to go back eating animal products after knowing all the suffering they go through.
My experience is totally the opposite. I’m been thriving on a plant based diet. I’m 46 and vegan for 13 years. I have no health issues, I never have headaches or period pain, or any other pain. I don’t have allergies or intolerance. I only feel bloated if I eat too much wheat gluten (bread, pizza and pasta on the same day). My skin and my hair looks healthy. I have loads of energy (I train capoeira 3x week) and I don’t feel tired during the day. I’m the only one in my family with normal thyroid (all my sisters, my mum and my brother have hypothyroidism). I do eat tons of veggies though. I eat at least 30 types of plants per week to keep my gut healthy. I avoid soda, sugar, deep fried food, ultra processed food and refined carbs.
Avocado, tahini, nutritional yeast, hummus, a mix of seeds, tofu and dark leaf greens are my everyday staple food – they have been great for my gut. I love so much how my diet makes me feel… I rarely few low.
Claire Cary says
Happy to hear it’s still working for you! Everyone is so different and it’s definitely important we all try to find what works for us.
MARY says
I was on a vegan diet as well and experienced the same problems you had hair falling out lack of energy . I am a person that likes to workout at least 4 or 5 times a week. And over time I got weaker and weaker and was unable to do what I was doing. So my iron was low I had digestive issues , inflammation lack of nutriants being obsorbed properly, so I went back to eating clean organic animal proteins. Feeling better but will take some time to get back to full strength. Thank you for sharing your experience with a vegan diet.
Claire Cary says
Sorry to hear about your experience! Happy you’re feeling better, and hopefully that continues to improve with time.
Hunter Ohmann says
I just accidentally stumbled upon your site and am so glad I did. I have been vegan for two years and vegetarian for three before that (ultimately vegan at home and veggie when going out as needed). I have IBS, a thyroid condition, low libido, hair loss, all the gut issues you mentioned and more. I had some fish this past weekend, and eggs. Trying to do free-range and am having chicken tonight if I can stomach it. I am trying to not picture things I’ve accidentally seen on Instagram when following vegan accounts (processing plants, etc.). My IBS/most likely bad anxiety untreated, allows me to picture the animal being killed, and that makes eating it in the moment difficult. Working on that now and trying to show myself some grace. I have tried everything, like you did, to remain vegan. I can’t stand up for animals when I can barely do so myself.
Claire Cary says
So sorry to hear about what you’re going through, I totally empathize. I will say it’s been about 4 years since I stopped being vegan and my health has truly done a complete 180. Listen to your body, it knows best!
Kathy says
Thank you for sharing your experience. I am going through something similar and it is refreshing to know that I am not alone. I have been vegan since 2018 and LOVED it for the first few years. Now, I live a sleepless life in pain. I have slowly started introducing animal products back into my diet – but have felt like a traitor. I know that I cannot eat dairy, but my body LOVES the meat and eggs that I have consumed.
Thanks again.
To a happier & healthier tomorrow!
Kathy
Claire Cary says
I totally understand how you feel! It was such a tough decision for me as well, but it’s been about 4 years and I can honestly say I’ve never felt better. My body definitely loves animal protein too! Wish you all the best!
Sharon says
I literally prayed today for answers to my health issues over the past few years. I have been vegan for almost 8 years now and about 4 years ago I became ill. I could have written the beginning of your post here about the doctor visits and everything possible and tons of supplements! So much money, so much time, so many doctors and nothing worked! My husband kept saying it is probably the vegan diet but like you, it felt like my identity and I praised that diet on social media like crazy! Just today I had an epiphany that it could truly be the diet. I started today to eat eggs. I don’t even really like meat. Never have, but will do anything to feel better. Thank you for writing this. It was definitely sent to me on purpose as I just Googled “Are vegan diets healthy.” Any tips you can give to eating really clean or supplements, etc… I don’t know if I have leaky gut. I never have stomach issues, but I have neurologic stuff going on. I have alot of emotional healing I am working on as well. ThanK you again!!!!
Sharon says
Claire, I believe this is me! I think why I have the neurological issues because I cannot absorb the B12 from the supplement for some reason. I am as of today transitioning back to eating meats and eggs and some dairy. I want to find the cleanest sources, as eating clean is super important to me. Do you have any info on why some cannot absorb the B12 supplement?
Fiona says
Thank you for sharing this. While I do believe some people can thrive on a vegan diet, I don’t think everyone can. Considering how diverse human bodies are from one another, each with its own unique needs, potential allergies, sensitivities, and possible physical conditions and/or diseases, I truly feel not everyone is meant to be on a long-term vegan diet. No one knows your body better than you do.
Most medical doctors and healthcare professionals may say that most people can be healthy on a plant based diet but they don’t necessarily mean vegan when they said plant-based since plant-based doesn’t mean only plants but rather centered predominately on them and that can encompass a broader range of diets such as vegetarian, flexitarian and pescatarian.
If someone doesn’t feel healthy while being vegan, it’s a fallacy for others to automatically assume it’s a lack of nutritional education or moral fortitude if they decide they need to be attune to those needs. Shaming people who are trying their best doesn’t do any living being any good and it only alienates.
Being on a vegan diet is a privilege not everyone is even in a position to participate in depending on a myriad of factors outside of one’s control from financial and geographical constraints to health issues including disordered eating and diseases that limit what one can use to substitute and supplement their diet with.
Claire Cary says
Well said and completely agree! Thanks for sharing your thoughts.
Mitali says
In india, most of the people eat 70 percent vegetarian and 30 percent non vegetarian diet which i think is perfect to balance everything out.
Natalie says
Thank-you so much for sharing this article! I have tried to go vegan and vegetarian lots of times, but my body can’t tolerate it. I feel sick from legumes, nuts, raw vegetables and too much fibre, and the fatigue is overwhelming. I recently tried to progress to plant based recently my body couldn’t handle it. I have also have needed iron infusions and b12 injections. It breaks my heart eating animals, I love them so much and find it hard to come to terms with the fact I cannot survive without eating meat. I did an Ayahuasca ceremony where I had visions and empathetic experiences of the suffering animals go through (I spent hours screaming and throwing up) and the fact I eat meat is a weight on my heart I can never feel free from. One day I just hope to live in better harmony with the planet, only consuming what I need and being grateful, and working towards living more sustainably. All the best in your journey.
Anya says
Thank you for this great article! I too tried to go fully vegan before for the animals and had to stop for similar health reasons. I have a heart condition and ended up in the hospital with electrolyte disturbances and abnormal blood work. I found I feel healthiest when I eat a variety of plant products along with some animal products. I also use vegan protein powders to supplement my protein intake and reduce the need for as much animal products. I also shop for organic, locally and humanely sourced meat, eggs, and dairy. For me what’s most important is the animal has a good life and isn’t stuck in a tiny cage. I am very anti-fur and don’t think we need to use animals for clothing, especially when doing so causes them so much suffering. But in terms of diet, unfortunately life has to eat life to survive; even plants can sense and respond to pain, we just don’t hear them. But I wish more people could come together with the shared goal of stopping animal cruelty and providing better conditions for farm animals, rather than simply demanding that everyone go vegan. When I’ve told people about the cruel reality of fur farming, they’ve clapped back with “do you eat meat? Then I don’t want to hear it” – but how am I to explain it to them? I will send them your article next time. Thanks again.
Bonnie says
I recently went from pescatarian diet including cheese and eggs to Vegan. At first I thought I was doing great then all of a sudden I had a horrible distended stomach that would not go away. I was so tired all I wanted to do was sleep. I had my physical and the blood work came back anemic. I wanted to improve my cholesterol and that didn’t even improve. I hate to admit it but this diet is wrecking my health. Your article is my message to stop. Thank you, as I now know I’m not alone.
Claire Cary says
Sorry to hear what you’re going through, Bonnie. Listen to your body and you’ll figure out what works for you!
Jacquelyn says
Thank you for sharing your journey! My experiences physically, emotionally, and socially are almost identical to yours. These decisions are complex within our relationships to each other and the earth. I appreciate the sensitive and authentic voice you provide! I wish you wellness!
Kris M says
Hi Claire, how long until you saw tangible results? like with gut health or skin? (mine just seems dry. it was dehydration for the previous breakouts i discovered. like…. a LOT of water needed. suprising.) hairloss stopped after supplements a while back, but i feel like hair is dull and it breaks at the top. wondering how long i might be in for to see some of these things (hopefully) turn around. or to lose food intolerances, would be fantastic and i hope that’s possible. i’m 2 weeks in, still sometimes feel emotional kickback from having had to make the choice. but being able to exercise again is so huge that i try and just focus on positives like that. also haven’t told my family, because i’m pretty sure the reactions would tromp my emotions pretty well. (i just know better). and am waiting till i am truly in a better place. i did manage to tell 2 close friends by now though. so that’s progress.
thanks for sharing this all, thanks for listening, and i pray that you have seen nothing but improvement and good health from this day forward.
Claire Cary says
It took a few months before anything major happened. I felt better within a few weeks, and it’s now been about 3 years and my health has truly never been better. It takes time, but hang in there! Confide in friends if you can, and remember that your body knows best! All the best to you.
Kris M says
I went through this recently. Vegan 6 years then vegetarian for almost 4. I’m wondering if the health crash I had was in any way caused by this… (It happened earlier on, definitely had the hair loss, leaky gut, and even a drastic 30 lb weightloss that was NOT a good thing. food intolerances skyrocketed.).
What you talk about regarding extending compassion to onesself – that was the hardest part i think. because i felt like i was abandoning my morals. but i reminded myself that torturing myself into horrific health and mental health was never the intention. and that i could choose to look for sustainable and humane sources. (something i wouldn’t have known to do before.) i also have a plethora of ways to cook plant-based, and still will, but with the addition of some protein. my sleep and mood changed drastically after the first night. wasn’t expecting that.
hoping HOPING some of the other stuff was tied to diet and might resolve. (also, supplements are expensive!! was spending over $300 at one point, after the crash.
thank you for sharing your story. i remember one a while back regarding “why i am eating eggs again” and if not for that person being brave enough to share that – i never would have tried adding them back to address exercise intolerance. i wouldn’t have thought to. at the end of the day, i know that i DID exhaust all options, i fought for everything, but if your body is not faring well…. sometimes you have to just take a deeeeeeeeep deeeeeeeeeeeep breath, and make a difficult change.
Camilla says
Hi,
Just wanted to let you know this is just what I needed.
I don’t want to make the heartbreaking decision to stop being vegetarian due to my principle of compassion to animals, in order to better my health. But it’s true we need a healthy balance where we are compassionate to ourselves also.
Thanks for this
Ms. Rain says
Thank you SO MUCH for sharing your story! I’ve been vegan-ish for approx. 3-4 months. But I had to re-evaluate what I need to for my body.
Today was the 2nd week in a row that I felt sick by the end of the week. Tired, no energy. Headache, etc. I used to feel weak , like I was going to fall over, by the end of the week. However, I added zinc, Vitamin C, multivitamins and a Vitamin D supplement (dr prescribed).
But something is still off.
I REALLY want to be a vegan & do my part for the earth, for animals, but I don’t think my body is set up for doing so. I most likely will go back to eating fish, lean organic/healthy raised chicken, lean turkey, with the occasional beef but NO PORK lol!
Also, don’t worry about the opinion of others. Those who mind don’t matter. And those who matter don’t mind!
Claire Cary says
Thanks so much for sharing your story! It’s such a tough thing to navigate, but my best advice is to listen to your body and do what you think is best for you!
Essie says
What on earth is Veganish? No such thing.
Alyssa says
Thank you so much for your words. After 2.5 years of being vegan (I am a 26 yr old female), I knew something wasn’t right when I missed my period for 3 months. On top of this I have a lack of energy and zero immunity. I like yourself loved being vegan, but these warning signs from my body are finally pushing me to make a change. Thank you for your vulnerability- it is helping others find what is best for them. Xx
Claire Cary says
Thank you so much for sharing Alyssa! I’m so glad this post was able to help you.
Syreeta says
Thank you, thank you, thank you for this blog. I also could not maintain this way of eating. I became disorientated and almost got in a serious car accident because my body was so weak and deficient in essential nutrients. Memory challenges, bloating, pain in my stomach and back all disappeared when I started eating meat again. I am now sticking with fish, chicken, and eggs. Bless you.
Bobby says
Believe it or not everything I need to know about eating I learned from Tom Brady (uh, the Quarterback)
First of all he has famously said “there are many ways to bake a cake”
So of course he would be okay with you no longer being Vegan
Anyway I am in perfect health and I am “mostly” Vegan and eat very similar to what Tom Brady talks about in his book TB12
I eat 20 or 30 different fruits and vegetables every single day
I eat a little fish
I eat bread with a little egg
If I eat chicken it is from truly run around a farm heritage breed organic feed truly had a happy life until that fateful day chickens
And the very rare times I eat beef it is again heritage truly grazed in total freedom on a giant ranch cow
Just what works for me
Suzay says
I am so tired. I got super dry skin and acne and irritable and bloated and weight gain after going vegan.
if its just collagen we need is there a non animal collagen?
Claire Cary says
It is definitely not just collagen you need, but I recommend speaking with a qualified practitioner who can best support you!
Lin says
Thank you for sharing this! I have been having similar issues including the hair loss, fatigue, and also dizziness, adrenal fatigue, cortisol spikes, heart palpitations, hormone imbalance, etc. I was wondering what tests have you done? I had a full hormone panel test and the basic blood tests that check for vitamin deficiencies and blood count, cholesterol, and thyroid. I wanted to have some more tests done but I’m not sure what to check for. The conventional doctors I went to just told me it was anxiety (this was before my hormone panel) and I haven’t gone back. But my naturopaths have suggested adding fish and eggs back in so I started doing that recently. I will try bone broth and collagen too. Thank you again!!
Claire Cary says
I had all sorts of tests done. Was ultimately diagnosed with Celiac Disease and anemia and had a lot of vitamin and mineral deficiencies as a result. My doctors all told me it was anxiety as well, so I totally feel your pain. Adding back in animal products has completely transformed my health, I highly recommend listening to your body and finding a doctor who will listen to you!
Kris M says
did celiac or the leaky gut ever resolve? and was it caused by the V diet or was it something you had prior do you think?
Claire Cary says
Celiac is a lifelong autoimmune illness, the only “treatment” is a lifelong gluten free diet, which is what I do!
Christina says
This is a wonderful, balanced post. I was vegan from 2012 until about 2 years ago when my thyroid started struggling. I had to add a little seafood and seaweed back into my diet. I have recently flirted with eggs and though they taste delicious, they seem to have disagreed with my skin (acne) and my sinuses, much like dairy, which is a huge no for me. I’ve contemplated adding meat back in, but as someone who loves recovering from workouts at light speed thanks to plant based foods, I just can’t wrap my head around the idea—that and the whole eating animals. Fish was hard enough. But thanks for sharing your story. It made my decision to at least try adding eggs back in feel a little less fraught.
Evelien says
Thanks for sharing your story! I is making me realise a lot about the problems I am facing with my vegan diet and demonstrating to me that I should feel okay when adding a few animal products in a week.
Chantelle says
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I have felt so guilty since transitioning from vegan diet to incorporating animals products. When I first went vegan, I felt amazing. I felt lighter and had plenty of energy. I thought I had found the perfect answer to our problems! I thought this would help human’s stay healthy and save the animals. Win Win! I told everyone I knew about the vegan diet and its incredible benefits and even decided to start raising my daughter vegan. I thought I was being a responsible vegan as well, incorporating supplements and a wide range of fruits, vegetables, nuts and legumes. I even sought out a vegan dietician to give me advice on raising my daughter vegan. But after a year into the vegan lifestyle something shifted in my body. I was not feeling well. I had an upset stomach and was low on energy. I felt anxious and stressed out. No matter how much I ate (I was even loading up on carbs), I was always hungry. It got to a point where just the sight of raw meat would give me the most intense cravings. That’s when I knew I had to start incorporating animal products back into my diet…
Donna Curtis says
I read your whole article. Thank you so much! I am 69 years old and have a 50 year history of serious digestive issues which medical doctors had various medications as the answer. 2 years ago I finally went to a Naturopath. She advised I transition to gluten and dairy free with the exception of butter. All of my symptoms resolved. I recently decided to go a step further and eat mostly plant based. None of my original symptoms came back but I have so much gas all the time. I am not going to a doctor about this. Your article has encouraged me to moderate my diet a bit more. Sorry so long an entry but want you to know I am very grateful for you sharing your story!!
Kate says
I was so happy reading this as I’ve been racked with guilt.
I started eating plant based under the advisement of my GP after being diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, and also for environmental reasons.
I have found it a struggle to balance my physiological reactions to the diet (bloating and a lot of the others you mention) as well as finding meals my fussy family would eat and the energy to cook AND lose weight. It’s felt like a battle for 2 years and I come to the conclusion that I need to look after my health first.
It’s my first week of reintroducing meat and I can feel a sense of relief in mind and body. I will only include meat in evening meals, and not every day, but I’m not going to beat myself up about it any more.
Thank you for writing this. 😊
Claire Cary says
Thanks so much for sharing Kate! So sorry to hear what you’re going through, but I hope you’re able to find what works for your body.
Kayln says
I loved reading this and I can relate so much. Thanks for sharing
Zee says
Thank you for this. I’m as conflicted as you were but my body hasn’t responded well to a solely vegan diet. It’s been 14 months and I’m ready to allow myself balance without guilt
70% of my meals will be plant based with 30% having organic free range eggs and wild caught fish.
Great article x
Lisa Palmer says
Thank you! It’s as if you just wrote my story. Beautifully said. I look forward to following your journey.
Claire Cary says
Thank you Lisa! All the best to you.
Renia Gkouzi says
“Veganism is inherently about compassion, but it’s important to remember to extend this compassion to ourself and fellow humans who simply cannot eat this way.”
That’s exactly my point of view after three years of being almost vegan (I did consume eggs). Above everything else, it’s very important to acknowledge what our very own body actually needs. As you said yourself, all those symptoms might be our body complaining and we should listen to those complaints instead of ignoring them. Personally throughout those years I’ve experienced a significant hair loss, felt bloated and gassy all the time. Also my skin didn’t get rid of acne and my energy levels never got better, instead I felt tired all the time. I still feel like that because the decision I made to include animal products in my diet is pretty recent. I hope I’ll be better soon. Thank you Claire for sharing your story and I hope you’re doing well.🤍
Claire Cary says
Couldn’t agree more! Thank you for your sweet comment Renia, hope all is well with you!
Missy says
Hi, I just found your blog and I’m glad you’re feeling much healthier now. I think there’s likely a lot of judgement in the vegan world (some real, but some perceived), which is unfortunate, as it actually delays good changes that people can make with regard to their diets.
I’m on week 4 of no dairy, chicken and beef (after decades of a typical diet that included them), but I’m still eating eggs and some seafood here and there. Yesterday I had an egg sandwich, and today I made pizza with seitan chicken and a vegan cheese sauce — both of which I made myself. I’m proud of my changes even though there’s no community/label for people like me, and I can neither call myself a true vegetarian or a true vegan. From what you wrote, you have nothing to feel ashamed of either.
I think we all do better when we cease comparing ourselves to others, but just see how far WE’VE come. That makes logical sense to me because we’re each meant to grow and walk our own path, not compete against each other in some game with made up rules based on fear. Life is hard enough, isn’t it?
So I’m very happy for you, and I hope you’re doing just fine.
Missy
Claire Cary says
Hi Missy,
I totally understand how you feel! It’s hard to connect with different dietary groups when there can be a lot of judgment on both ends of the spectrum. I hope you’re doing well and are able to find balance in whatever way works for you!
Best,
Claire
Paloma says
I am really glad I’m not the only one who is going through this🙃. I am 10 years old right now and is underweight,having hair loss,bad skin,feeling bloated after a meal,fatigue, and shortness of breath. I started a plant-based diet 6 months ago I believe and it started out okay, but now i’m feeling terrible and its affecting my mental health real bad. I went to a doctor recently and she said I was very underweight (i’m 4’10 and 64 pounds). This whole thing also started when I thought I was fat and tried loosing weight. I started eating way too few calories and started counting calories and being worried about what I ate and what I would eat. This affected my mental health,weight,and my daily does of nutrient intake. I even went through a phase where I was too lazy to even take a shower. When I started veganism, it made everything even worse. Right now, i’m trying to go back to normal and make everything right. Today I ate 1 fried egg with strawberry slices on the side for breakfast. And for lunch I ate brown rice with carrots and spinach, which made me feel bloated. It was my first time eating brown rice, and I felt terrible. My stomach started hurting some time later and it made me really stressed out and worried about myself. My parents tried to help me relax and have me take a sip of 2% dairy milk (also note that my parents are aware that i’m underweight but not vegan). I refused to take it and tried just drinking water and walking around. Its night-time right now and i’m about to go to bed, I really hope that I can get better soon. For now on, I will eat fruits,vegetables,whole-grains,legumes,nuts,non-dairy products,salmon,eggs,and chicken. I will also have some multi-vitamins on hand so that I get enough nutrients! Oh I forgot to say, during all the disaster, I never took any supplements so that might have also made a big and bad impact into my health. I will try to update you on the rest of my journey and how I do. Also please do write me back to help me out, it will mean THE WORLD to me! Love, Paloma Marie Asencio
Tove Ghent says
I am now just exploring a vegan diet due to liver disease. This is the second article and you are the third woman who has talked about reluctantly having to give up veganism for her health. Given that animal meat is not something I can any longer safely eat, I really hope I am never faced with a similar choice. You did what you needed to do for you, and your honesty and courage are a beacon of light to others trying to balance love and compassion for animals with making appropriate health decisions. Not easy.
David G says
Hi,
I turned vegan Jan 2020 and have been losing hair heavily for 9 months now. And eyebrows. I’ve seen multiple doctors too and had blood work – which all came back fine.
I’m tempted to reintroduce meat and eggs on the advice of doctors and a dietician.
Did you experience eyebrow loss?
How long did it take for your hair to return to ‘normal’?
Glad to hear you’re fit and healthy now.
Claire Cary says
Hi, I didn’t experience any eyebrow loss, but I’d definitely recommend chatting with a doctor about it! It took several years before my hair returned to a state I was comfortable with. Hang in there!
Ava Jerome says
Thank you for your honesty. I needed this.
Catherine says
Hi Clair,
I have to admit that reading this ticked me off. There is a lot of ableism in the vegan community. I have had an autoimmune disease for most of my life and literally cannot survive without having animal products. Regardless, vegans have shamed and gaslit me. I don’t think that you should have to experience a health condition yourself in order to have empathy for those with chronic illness. Some vegans have all the empathy and compassion in the world for animals but completely spurn their fellow humans living with disability and chronic illness. That is ableism. I hope the vegan community can recognize how they’ve been prejudiced against folks like me and work to change that because it’s honestly unacceptable.
Claire Cary says
Hi Catherine, I’m not sure why you’re coming at me for this? Seems like we are in agreement about the issues within the vegan community. I have an autoimmune disease as well and fully understand the need for animal products, as including them in my diet has completely changed my health. Again, not sure why you’re addressing your frustration toward me, seems like we’re on the same side! I have been shamed and gaslit as well by people who don’t understand why I need to consume animal products to maintain my health, and I’m sorry you have experienced that as well.
Kris M says
I have to say, that is what i have seen as well. people of various diets (could be vegan, vegetarian, or other, or even other beliefs) that have little to no compassion for others, judge harshly, or even attack.
i even got attacked and harassed as sort of a stand in for all of those more….(insert negative word here) type of people. i didn’t judge, didn’t tell people what to eat, but they’d come at me with an accounting of their lunches at work, or to profess their love of meat at me. and it’s like… just leave me alone. if you are curious about stuff, we’ll talk. but otherwise i kept to myself and hated people parroting that joke at me — “how do you know who is vegan? don’t worry, they’ll tell you.” as if i was supposed to own a behavior i didn’t do???
anyways… i think that shaming and such never accomplishes anything. crusading doesn’t either. it just isolates people, puts them at odds. and frankly, makes me look down on the person’s cause. i can’t imagine it wouldn’t be the same for others. (i grew to dislike many of the vegan and veg folks out there because frankly a lot of them were insufferable. egotistical. in your face. etc. i also ended up hiding the fact that i was vegan and later veg, just so people wouldn’t feel compelled to harass me.)
i hope that people learn to grow up, to be kind, and to understand that everyone is different. and that even if a lifestyle or diet works for them, FOREVER… it doesn’t mean that another person’s body would act the same way. some people thrive forever on veg and that is great. i thought that would be me as well. but steadily things kept proving that wrong and so after many many years, and an identity tied to being a plant-based eater… i had to make a change as well. i still can feel upset about it. but does it help any animals for me to kill myself slowly with degrading health, or to have mental health suffer to the point i don’t want to be alive? …. probably not. so my compromise is just enough alt protein as necessary, sourced sustainably and humanely. it is the best i can do to be true to my morals/beliefs, and true to myself (actual health & wellbeing). it’s still hard though. it’s only been 2 weeks. after almost 10 yrs. : (
Riley says
Thank you for sharing this! I have been vegan for about a year and a half now and my skin is absolutely terrible, I have such low energy and migraines, and feel like I am always “allergic” to something new. I feel like it’s time for me to switch it up, realizing as important as animals and the environment are to me, my health has to be top priority too. How did you feel slowly introducing meat back into your diet? I tried chicken yesterday and felt SO guilty. Any tips?
Claire Cary says
Hi Riley! I totally get how you feel. Honestly, chicken was hard at first for me. I started with fish for a few months before doing chicken and was fine with that. I felt a lot better when I started eating chicken, so I would make recipe where it kind of blended in like stir fries and chop it small, shredded chicken tacos etc. so I wouldn’t notice it as much. The guilt wore off after a while (hopefully that doesn’t make me sound horrible lol) because I just felt SO much better after feeling so horrible for so long, so it was all worth it for me. Give it time and listen to your body above all!
Deborah says
Hi Claire
I just stumbled upon this post and i felt like i was reading my own story lol.
I am only very slowly transition away from a vegan diet but with extreme guilt at the moment unfortunately… I have not been able to include to eat any animal i wont call them meat because to me they are just innocent animals… Nevertheless my vegan diet like your has not worked… I am. Gutted that i cannot maintain it but my body is sending clear signals…
I currently have gained an iodine defeicency through my diet and have terrible joint pain and tiredness due to the high carb content of this diet… I have slowly included eggs back in to my diet and im not a huge fan of fish now but i feel i may be able to work up to this…
How is your diet going these days
Be lovely to hear
Kindest of regards
Deborah
Claire Cary says
Hi Deborah!
I’m so sorry to hear you’re going through the same. It’s been about two years since I changed my diet and honestly, I will never look back. I felt the same way you did about eating meat (and even calling it that), but it’s made such a difference to my health and the quality of my life that it now feels very normal to me. It definitely takes time to feel comfortable with it, especially if you’ve been vegan for a while, but at the end of the day, your body knows what’s best for you.
Sending you so much love, hope you start to feel better soon!
Claire
Isa says
Thank you for sharing this. I’m sorry you had to go through this & glad you managed to recover. There’s no need to explain yourself, as you say world isn’t back & white, single-dimensional and we shouldn’t judge people, let alone in binary options. We will never know individual’s full story, we don’t have the right to judge. It’s the openness that really matters. I tried plant-based diet myself, had similar health experience (liver & pancreas in my case) and appreciate your effort to show people the perspective that being ex-vegan or anyone else by that matter, doesn’t make you a bad person, or someone less committed to environmentalism & compassion. There are many ways to express it and as Greta said we don’t need some people doing all, we need all people doing a little.
Your blog is really great!
Best of luck!
Claire Cary says
Thank you Isa! I really appreciate your thoughtful response. I totally agree, and love that quote from Greta! Thank you so much for your support, hope you’re staying healthy!
Jamie says
Your story was interesting to read. I went vegan a few years ago and have not checked my levels but plan on doing it in the next couple months. I feel great but sorry to hear you had such a rough experience. It’s obvious that your compassionate about animals and tried everything you could before giving up on veganism. I myself, recently, have added bivalves into my diet so guess I’m no longer a vegan. Hope your health keeps on improving.
Claire Cary says
Thanks Jamie! It’s been about 2 years since I made the switch and I’m honestly feeling better than I have in a long time! All the best to you.
Carisa says
Hi Claire!
I’m a little late to the party, but I just wanted to say thank you for posting this! I was vegan for 4 years, supplemented, and was very diligent about meeting all of my nutritional needs. It worked great for awhile and then I started having issues.
I think there is a way to be both compassionate to the planet while also being compassionate towards yourself.
Being sustainable and conscientious with ones choices is extremely important. The rest is up to you and your body!
Claire Cary says
Hi Carisa! I couldn’t agree more. Hope you were able to find what works for you!
Jessica says
Hi! I’m experiencing something similar. I have been vegan for almost four years. When I started, my skin cleared, my mood shifted for the better and I stopped feeling weighed down. Now it’s like the exact opposite! My acne is back, I’m always tired, and my hair is very weird and weak. I crave eggs and salmon and sometimes meat! I made salmon last week to try and see how I would feel. I feel fine? I’m sure once won’t affect anything. I’m going to try to stop eating processed foods and then if that doesn’t fix what I’m experiencing: hello eggs, I guess.
Claire Cary says
I’m so sorry to hear what you’re going through. All I can suggest is to listen to your body! Sending my best.
Jacqueline says
Thank you , thank you, thank you for writing about your experiences with being vegan. Its been a little over a year for me and my hair is falling out, itchy skin, anxiety and sleepless nights. I have cravings of eating turkey and chicken but I have anxiety going back to meat. Every body is different and what works for one may not work for another.
Thank you so much.
Jackie
Claire Cary says
I’m so sorry to hear what you’re going through. I always encourage everyone to listen to their own body. Healing takes time but I hope you start feeling better soon!
Jessie says
Claire, I just fond your blog. While I was ready this I felt like I was reading about my journey. I too was a Vegan for 9 months. The first month I felt amazing and so happy I wasn’t eating any animal products. Then things progressed downhill. I started getting headaches for 24 hours once a week, I got sick more, got the flu, then shingles, then a sinus infection. I had no energy and still had to take care of my three kids three times. I then realized once I ate meat none of this happened. I went back on meat and everything cleared up. This was about 5 years ago, and I am still not 100% back. when I went to the doctor and got blood work done he said if I didn’t go back on meat I would have passed out, as I was so nutrient deficient. Now, I only eat chicken, beef, and eggs and milk from farms. These are also farms that I visit. They are all pastured raised, grass fed and finished. If we go out, I get vegetarian. When we order in, I get vegetarian or make my own. Several of my doctors even said eating Vegan is not for everyone. We need to listen to our bodies. Thank goodness you did listen to yours
Claire Cary says
Hi Jessie, thank you so much for sharing. I’m so glad you have found what works for your body and are feeling better! I agree it’s not for everyone, we all need to do what works for our own bodies. Sending love!
Dude man says
I feel gross hearing about the collagen but I do appreciate how you didn’t knock down veganism for others.
I commend you for your journey and wish others would stay on as long as you did. Thank you for that and more.
Katie says
I have been searching and searching, and I have finally found story that so closely aligns with mine – your story! However, I have been on a long track of recovery with many setbacks and would love to know more about the steps you have taken to get to the point you are at. Thanks for sharing your journey. x
Claire Cary says
It’s been a very long road with lots of ups and downs! But ultimately, the decision to include animal products in my diet was exactly what I needed and I truly haven’t felt better in years. Listen to your body, it knows best!
Richard says
I went vegan almost three years ago, and my health improved similar to your own. Recently, I also experienced health issues, that all started with kidney stones, digestive issues, and other stuff I need not mention.
Your article rings so true, “Our bodies to talk to us and we should listen.” I guess I’ve concluded something I already knew and ignored, which is everything within reason is all right when done in moderation.
Thanks for sharing. I feel less isolated.
Claire Cary says
I’m so happy this post helped you, Richard! All the best to you.
Josie says
I’ve just come across this post now and want to thank you so so much for your bravery in sharing this. I’ve been a vegetarian for most of my life and a vegan for the past 4 years, have always felt super healthy and full of energy until this last year, I’ve had pretty much all the same symptoms as you had.. looking pregnant after ANYTHING I eat is hard to deal with! I’ve also tried so many doctors and nutritionists etc but finally came across one who’s pinpointed what’s going wrong and suggested I introduce some animal products back into my diet. It’s been a really difficult decision but finding posts like yours has given me some support in going through with it. We have to be compassionate towards ourselves too and recognise what our body needs! Thankyou again for sharing, hope you’re feeling well now ❤️
Claire Cary says
I’m so sorry to hear about what you’re going through, but I’m glad my post has helped in some way. It was such a tough decision for me too, but almost 2 years later and I truly haven’t felt better! Hang in there ❤️
Daphnee says
Hi Claire,
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I just stumbled accross this today and while I was reading through your post I couldn’t believe how similar your story is to mine. I haven’t had the courage yet to try eating meat again, but every day I get a step closer. I have been vegan for fourteen years, so it’s pretty significant, but I have a feeling that it is the right step for me now.
Can I ask you, since you posted this one year ago, how do you feel now that you have had more time eating meat again? Do you eat all types of meat, or do you stick to just poultry and seafood?
Thank you again for sharing this. It has helped me immensely.
Claire Cary says
Hi Daphnee! I’m so sorry to hear you’re going through something similar, but I happy this post has helped you! It’s been about a year and half since I stopped being vegan and I honestly haven’t felt better in a long time. It wasn’t an immediate change and I had some lingering issues, but it’s overall been a very positive change. I have never been a big red meat eater, so I still stick with poultry and seafood and find that works well for me. It was strange at first to eat meat, but it’s totally normal to me now and something I really enjoy! Hope that helps, and let me know if you have any more questions!
Estelle de Bruyn says
Thank you for sharing.
Swati Prakash says
Plant based diet and veganism are very difficult… As diets are about you, your beauty, health, body…fitness etc.
Veganism is about ethics not just physical body or image. It is about eliminating suffering band a path of non violence or Ahimsa. Diet is just a very basic way of expressing that. Veganism is not something you try out…
Not adding to rape, murder or slavery is not something to try out for a while and quit if you find your body (mind) reacting to withdrawal symptoms.
If you are against rape, torture, slavery, abuse, murder… that’s it…you are so.. that’s your truth. You don’t stop being against bit. You don’t try non violence and then quit because of health reasons. It is a deep sense of right and wrong.
So kindly change title of story to why you are no longer a plant based dieters.
Or why are you no longer sensitive to horrors of rape, abuse, slavery and murder.
Do not add to prevalent confusions about the term veganism. Let us not miseducate people that vegans all over the world are suffering health wise or having hairfall..or whatever you are blaming yourself for. Its the mind that ultimately makes it real…it’s the matrix that has us here..a simulation of our beliefs and out of our belief we create our own reality. If you really believe in ethics and non violence…you will learn that there might be Yogi’s who practice far more challenging paths, pure frugivore, breatharians, those with real spiritual power and who are above this Matrix. It is really about your consciousness level and most of us are victims bof the Matrix unable to rise up from the prison cells of our programmed reality due to lack of will power and lack of faith in our inner self. Without ethics deeply rooted within we are hollow, beautiful and healthy outside. I do not blame any individual as we are victims of the system but an individual can rise above the system if he or she resonates deeply with inner values and consciousness and ignores articles from the Matrix designed to derail Ascension.
Claire Cary says
When I first went vegan, I was deeply committed to the ethics. I never in a million years thought I would eat meat or any animal products again. Until your health is truly suffering, it’s impossible to say how you would respond. I am absolutely sensitive to the horrors or rape, abuse, slavery and murder, but I am also sensitive to the horrors of having crippling health issues that prevent you from doing anything with your life.
I never said “vegans all over the world are suffering health wise…” because that isn’t true. But veganism does not work for everyone, so let us not spread the message that is does.
Nunya says
Your insensitivity to this story is astounding.
God killed the first animal in the garden to clothe Adam and Eve. Ain’t nothing wrong with eating meat, so long as we are good stewards of what God has blessed us with (i.e., saying no to factory farms and yes to family farms). How about we learn to love thy neighbor first? Humans are not animals. People who put the lives of animals above the lives of humans, with souls AND spirits, continue to boggle my mind.
Should we respect animals? Yes. We should respect them, and God put mankind above animals to take care of them (and all of creation, actually—not above God of course because creation cannot overshadow it’s Creator), and we are directed to be good stewards of all He has given to us. But our first command is to love as He loved us, and that love should be shown to all mankind, who have spirits that can be destroyed.
Think about this: are you this passionate to the countless unborn babies who are executed each year? Probably not. Maybe you are (if so, great). Ensure that your perceived self-righteousness is not akin to wickedness. If you are spreading falsehoods or being hypocritical, this is not righteousness.
Quitting veganism is not the same as being okay with rape, torture, and murder (not even in the same supercluster). If it is hurting someone’s body or is not right for someone’s lifestyle to continue veganism or to start veganism (or, golly, if they just want to have meat), (1) it is not your place to judge—you are still entitled to your opinion like everybody has a butthole—and (2) it’s probably unwise to continue said lifestyle. Don’t kid yourself, you would do the same.
This here is the exact reason why people do not want to become vegan. This holier-than-thou god-like complex in which you want to assert superiority but it just shows your insecurity in yourself. Your identity is not what you eat. It is not what you, either.
I will be praying for you.
Aletia says
Hi and thank you for your interesting read. I understand completely where you are coming from. I’ve been vegan for 2 years now and feel fine but I have recently learned that veganism isn’t suited to my blood type. Out of interest what is your blood type? Basically all of the food groups that I should be avoiding in the blood type diet are what I’m consuming as a vegan. It’s so mind blowing I really don’t know what to do. I’m left with very little I can eat. At the moment the thought of eating any form of animal product repulses me I shall have to see if my health declines. I suffergreatly with HSV 2 flare ups and the vegan diet does not help this. Anyone else going through similar stuff?
Claire Cary says
I’m blood type O. In my experience, following any rigid diet, whether it be blood type, vegan, paleo etc. ultimately leads to too much restriction and possible malnourishment. It is so, so important to listen to your body and do what feels best for you, regardless of what everyone else is doing or saying.
Megan Bergeron says
I came across your post today because I was searching for others who dealt with giving up a vegan diet. I’m so relieved to find this written in a way that I can totally relate to! I made the decision today to add chicken, salmon and eggs back into my diet. I’m allergic to dairy. I’m having the same problems as you; the hair loss, hormone Imbalance, and my mood is just low. I also have cystic acne. I take B12, Calcium, magnesium and zinc, but nothing seems to be working. I was also drinking a raw plant based protein shake every morning. It’s been months and like you I’ve had blood, thyroid, and other testing done. I feel so guilty turning my back, but I have to do what’s best for me. Thank you for being so open and letting others know that it’s okay to not be vegan anymore.
Claire Cary says
Thank you so much for sharing and I’m so sorry to hear about what you’re going through. I had many of the same reservations as you, but it’s been about a year since I made the switch and I can confidently say it was incredibly beneficial for my health and I’m so glad I did it. Sending you love and hope you feel better soon!
John says
Once it was without question that the earth was flat. Now it is without question that grazing animals harm the planet and cropping rather than grazing is the solution. Therefore the modern mantra is that veganism is kinder to the planet.
I am glad that throughout history some people have questioned the unquestionable. I don’t like seeing people turning the planet into a hot desert.
Claire Cary says
I too question the unquestionable which is why I stopped following a diet that was making me sick despite my strong belief that there was only one “perfect human diet” and one way to treat the planet kindly. I was wrong.
John says
Thanks Claire. That you did and all credit to you for doing so. Courage is sorely lacking these days.
It is up to you but I think you should include that link to the scientist who restores arid areas or there is a danger that people will think we are both mad – just saying.
Heidi says
Hi Claire, thanks for sharing your journey and what is now working for you. I have recently switched to a plant based diet and have found that some in the vegan community are all or nothing. You either completely go vegan at all costs or what you are doing doesn’t count. That is very disconcerting to newbies. I say do what works best for you and thank you for all that you have contributed and will continue to do so in the future. I’m looking forward to trying some of your recipes and following you.
Claire Cary says
Hi Heidi, thank you for your thoughts! I completely agree, and wish people would be more open minded. I think a plant based diet is a wonderful way of eating, but it is also so important to listen to your body. I love creating and sharing vegan recipes, and hope there is something here you enjoy! All the best.
Sven says
Such a heartfelt and well written post. You are a very brave woman who has been through a lot. The bottom line is that no single diet is best for everyone. The only common
Colleen says
Hi Claire, thank you for your blog, sharing your insight, and your honesty. You have been on my heart and I felt I needed to share my story with you. I have been whole food plant based for about 5 years now. The transition was a gradual one and now includes no oil. I was 52 years when I went WFPB and my skin really suffered. For the first time in my life, I endured acne. I never gave up on my WFPBNO diet because I felt so amazing (not immediately I must admit) otherwise and now my skin is returning to its former self. It took a while though and what I am wondering is this … perhaps my body was so toxic and the acne was a symptom of my body healing much like the symptoms of other poisonous addictions where the body feels and looks worse when the substance is stopped but with perseverance and abstinence from the toxic substance begins to turn itself around and heal. I’m now 5 years WFPBNO, feeling well, am medication free, and my skin is great, but I had to endure my first ever bout of acne for about two years. Looking back, I have to say today, the struggle with acne was worth it. xoxo
Claire Cary says
Hi Colleen, so happy to hear you are doing better! Acne is almost always a symptom of a toxic body and was definitely the case for me. Poor gut health, parasites, poor detoxification, all contributed to my very severe acne. Health often gets worse before it gets better as the body begins to heal and eliminate what no longer serves it. I’m happy a WFPB worked for you, but my body feels much better with the small addition of animal products. XO
Boyce says
Very well stated and clarified from your experience. Thanks for caring and sharing your path to improved health. I have increased more plant-based foods into my life, but also listen to my body for whole person I am. Glad your health better. Keep taking care of yourself…..you know you!!🤗
Claire Cary says
That’s awesome! I think adding more plants into your diet is always great, but listen to your body and do what’s best for you.
George says
Great article Claire. Thanks for sharing all of this. I have been much skeptical for the past years about nutrition. I am from Greece and one of the good things here is the Mediterranean way of eating. Maybe with less diary but with a quality meat or fish meal from time to time.
Hope you are fine and healthy.
Gladys says
Dear Clair,
Wow, welldone!!
Sharing that couldn’t have been easy especially considering this is not only your your food choice, but your life style, and it weighs on many other aspects of your life.
It’s really great that you’ve used your experience to shed light to some of the challenges faced when we opt for a vegan lifestyle and you’ve done it in such a positive and inspiring way!
I accidentally stumbled upon this whilst looking for your caramelized gluten free banana pancakes recipe but I’m so happy I did. You’re not alone on a journey of this sort I promise, though few will take the brave step in sharing such an experience.
Thankyou for using your platform in such an inspirational way!
Claire Cary says
Thank you for your message! Many people are going through similar situations with their health, so I am happy to shed light on these issues in hope it can help others who are struggling.
Pam says
Thank you for your story me honesty. I too believe one diet doesn’t fit all. I do have a question. How does someone get parasites it there gut and how do you find out you ha e them?
Claire Cary says
Hi Pam. You can read all about parasites and how I found out I had them/treated them here https://eatwithclarity.com/parasite-cleansing/
Amber says
Rock on Wellness Warrior! Your body is YOURS! It’s no-one’s business what you nourish your body with. I think it is amazing that you listened to your body and knew what it was telling you it needed. So many people don’t. Or can’t because they’ve eaten so poorly for so long. We are all biologically different. And that biology is constantly changing. Thank you for sharing your story. I’m so sorry you’ve had to struggle! And so happy you are feeling better and finding the right path to healing. Keep on rockin’ it!
Claire Cary says
Exactly! What works for us at one point in our lives may not work forever and it’s so important to listen to what our bodies are asking for. Thank you for the love!
Lolly says
Hi Claire,
I really appreciate you sharing your story with such openness and honesty. It’s something that hits us very deep when our bodies don’t respond to what we feel is the right thing. I find it helpful to hear I’m not alone in my own experience. There is a real moral, ethical and emotional dilemma that arises which in itself is a challenge.
I went vegan 2014 after being veggie most my life, several months in I started with hair loss, fatigue, light headnedness and much later found I had iron, vitamin d and b12 deficiencies. Low iron stores (ferritin) has been the thing I’ve battled with for years (non-heme supplements just dont work for me).
I’ve been making organic chicken liver soup once a week which has finally helped get my ferritin up, along with heme iron supplements and I try to cut out gluten as much as possible.
So thank you again for sharing!
Claire Cary says
Thank you so much for your message! I’m glad to hear this resonated with you, but so sorry you went through something similar. I hope you’ve been able to find what works for you and are doing better!
Kellie says
I appreciate your story. Having only started being a vegan/ plant based a year and a half ago I still have the nagging in the back of my mind. To hear other people’s stories gives you signs to look for at least. And hey we do want we can where we can. If you think your perfect… you’re probably wrong😁
Claire Cary says
A plant based diet really can be amazing, so don’t let my issues confuse you! There are definitely things you have to be cognizant of, so always listen to your body and do what’s best for you.
Karen says
As a vegan I’m sad you transitioned away from a full vegan lifestyle, but as a human who works in the healthcare industry I am infinitely saddened for your personal suffering. My heart truly bleeds for the physical and ultimately, the emotional trauma that goes with your journey. My love to you xoxo
On another note, my 2 cents if you will, there is strong evidence that fermented foods (eg kimchi, miso etc) contain significant values of vit b12 that can adequately sustain vegan diets. That said, my personal belief and that which I preach to anyone who will listen, is that ALL women, including omnis, will benefit from supplementing vit B (from multi b groups).
Claire Cary says
Hi Karen, thank you! I have been taking a B-complex for quite a while now, which has been very beneficial. However, my issues go much deeper than needing certain vitamins/minerals, but I appreciate your thoughts.
Alpha says
I had the exact same issues with veganism as you experienced. Added to my issues were that the extra carbs caused my blood sugar to rise. I have blood panels to prove it. No one is bashing the choice. I wish everyone would understand that veganism is not the end all be all option (cure) for everyone. Thank you for sharing.
Claire Cary says
Thank you for sharing! Veganism is definitely not for everyone and I hope you are doing better now 🙂
Chiara C. says
You don’t have to worries at all, being vegan means being compassionate about the whole nature, not only animals, and personally, all I want is that everyone feels healthy, happy, safe. And if you are now, I’m with you!🤗
I was just wondering if B12 had his part in your healthy problems. You know, many b12 supplements are made with cyanocobalamin, which undergoes a cyanide contamination used for its extraction. Even if cyanide it’s safe in that exposure, its repeated sublethal exposure can cause several healthy issues. Also, one of the side effects of cyanocobalamin is rash. My father had to stop taking b12 because it caused him several skin problems. Then we stopped taking too. It was 10 years ago circa. He completely healed and we never experienced problems at all and our b12 levels are perfect. It’s not easy to be healthy in a world full of chemistry. But spreading love is always the answer. Big hugs from Italy.
Claire Cary says
I did have a B12 deficiency, but I was taking methylated B12 but still wasn’t absorbing it. Glad to hear you’re father is doing better!
Joeoe says
If you need supplements then the diet is flawed.
Claire Cary says
That’s not entirely true, but thanks for the feedback!
Jen says
Thank you for sharing so honestly. I have just started a vegan diet (4 weeks now) and I wonder how it will affect my health – I hope in positive ways but I worry about long term changes and if I’m doing the right thing. I found your story really interesting and I will definitely keep checking in to see how you’re doing. I’m fairly new to your page but already love your recipes. Thanks again for sharing. Xx
Claire Cary says
Hi Jen, thank you for your message! A vegan diet is an incredibly healthful way of eating, as long as you eat a balanced diet and supplement accordingly. A lot of people have long term success as a vegan, but it was no longer working for me. Thank you for the love and support!
Gloria says
Well written and something every one of us needs to be reminded about. Each body is unique and needs different things at different times. We have to listen to our own bodies and like you did make adjustments when needed. So happy you are well. Thank you for sharing.
Claire Cary says
Thank you, Gloria! It took me a while to get here but I’m so grateful things are finally getting better.
Haley says
No need to explain yourself to anyone. Your heart is true and your body is happy. Shine bright you sweet beautiful soul!
Claire Cary says
Thank you Haley! I really appreciate that.
Aisha C. says
So well stated. You clearly have given this a lot of thought and consideration. Your health is the most important part and clearly you have made this decision for excellent reasons. We all need to be open minded and not think in black and white terms. I am still vegan because it works for me but I would not be opposed to small amounts of fish or eggs if I felt I needed it. After all, humans are biologically omnivores so it makes sense that some people just don’t thrive on a 100 percent vegan diet.
Claire Cary says
Exactly! I’m so glad veganism is working for you, but it just doesn’t work for everyone. Thank you for being open minded and for your support!
Abby says
The area where you went wrong was the iron. you don’t take the iron pills that the doctors give to you because they’re not the kind of iron that humans can digest. You need iron fluoride which is found in burdock root, sarapadilla. I took a natural liquid iron I took Floradix-vegan brand (Whole Foods) and it helped me
immensely.
You should’ve been to a naturopath because they would’ve helped you heal your gut while being vegan. it is 100% possible.
Claire Cary says
Hi Abby, I never indicated which form of iron I took in this post, so I’m not sure why you jumped to that conclusion. It’s important to keep in mind that just because a certain supplement or way of eating/living worked for you, doesn’t mean it will work for someone else. It’s pretty clear to me you didn’t read this post because I very clearly stated that I went to a naturopath. Several of them actually. I’m sorry you are under the impression that one way of eating works for everyone, but unfortunately that is not the case. All the best.
Cyndi says
I don’t know you, but you sound like a very reasonable person. 🙂
Claire Cary says
Thank you, Cyndi! I certainly like to think so 🙂
martha shuster says
Dear Claire,
It was with sympathy and pride that I just read your well written, in depth autobiography of the last few years. I admire your honesty and self-awareness, the passion you have for always being your best self. Nobody knows how to do that except YOU. Life is a series of trials and errors. All of us have our trials, but not everyone admits failure or the need to begin anew. You are a very brave young woman. I know from talking to your wonderful (and compassionate) parents that you have suffered, and are now moving forward with your life. Knowing you need to adapt to the lessons you have learned, ensures that these few years have been productive, albeit painful, chapters of your life. You are improving, have learned a great deal about nutrition and yourself that you did not know previously. With that knowledge you have the ability to not only help yourself ( most important!), but you can also be of help to others. I would never judge anyone based on their diet alone. Those who do are self-righteous and blind to others talents, skills, and other positive traits that others can contribute to this sad world. Keep up the great work ,and know that you are loved just the way you are – always!!! xo, aunt Martha
Claire Cary says
Thank you Aunt Martha!! These past few years definitely haven’t been easy, but I finally feel like I’m on the other side of things and have seen so much improvement. Love to you, XO
Ben says
Thats IT! I would like to spread this message: “ There is no one perfect human diet. We are all unique beings with different needs, ancestral backgrounds, and physical chemistries. “
Just share your story every time you can. A lot of people are on the same path. Some are a bit behind some more advanced but that is exactly the next step after veganism – the balanced diet acording to personal needs. I would definatelly share your story!
Claire Cary says
Thank you so much, Ben! A lot of people are struggling with the same issues, so I’m happy to share my story and hopefully help others along their health journey. I have so much more to share and I’m happy it has resonated with you so far.